9:35 A.M., Morning of the First Day, 70 hours and 25 minutes remain. I keep my gun on him. My head snaps around to look outside, expecting to see the puffs of dust from the ground as the machine gun’s bullets drive into the dirt road. Nothing yet… perhaps they aren’t aiming down the road? I turn my head the other way to look out the window—
My knuckles and palm sting in unison, the feeling reminding me of the pain when you hit a baseball wrong with the bat. Right hand’s flung to the side, and I look back in front of me just in time to see Powder pulling the stock of his weapon back and slamming it into my gut. My fingers lose their hold on the revolver as the wind wheezes out of my lungs. It’s a good hit. Portly though I may be, it is a
good hit.
I start leaning down to pick up the discarded weapon, but neither my heart nor my lungs are in it. Partially because I know it’s not loaded, partially because I know from my seat in the chair I’ll never reach it in time, and partially because I realize that I blew it. Very first person I meet, very first conversation I have, and he clubs me in the gut within five minutes. Too late do I realize how cheap talk is. Too late do I realize how paranoid this sick “game” will make everyone.
My own gun is pointed at my head now, Powder gripping it with his left hand while still holding onto his grenade launcher with the right. It doesn’t matter if it’s not loaded; the image alone is enough to make me freeze. Powder glares daggers of fire into my eyes, looking frighteningly like an Old West cowboy with that grey stubble on his chin and rust-brown coat he’s wearing.
I know exactly what I have to do. It’s what I should have done the moment I saw him. The only question I ask myself now is why I didn’t do it on the first place… Doesn’t matter. I stop talking. I start
saying something.
“Sean… Eckers.”
He continues to glare at me, not understanding. “Whah?”
I don’t give myself the time to reconsider. “My name is Sean, Judd, Eckers.
‘If at any point during the duration of the engagement the contractor reveals to any other participant their legal name, they shall immediately forfeit the right to any and all payments they have earned or will earn pertaining to Section 3.’ I am
not trying to kill you Powder.”
He raises the corner of his lip in partial disgust, adjusting the grip on my Colt. “…And how do I even know that’s your real name,
Chamber?”
“You don’t.
They do.”
He sets down his launcher and grips the revolver properly with both hands. He doesn’t believe me. Of course he doesn’t. Nobody is going to. But that doesn’t change the fact that I sure as Heaven and Hell know my own name, and it
is Sean Judd Eckers.
“Shut up,” he commands me. “You start answering what I have to say, and you answer it
properly, or I swear to God I’ll—“
“
Stop; don’t finish it,” I interrupt. “Don’t say something you’ll regre—“
”I said shut, up, fat man!” His finger’s already on the trigger, hands shaking; the revolver is raised right to his eye level. The only thing stopping him from realizing that it isn’t loaded is the fact that he won’t take his eyes off
me. “Who are they?! You tell me right now, what do they want with us?!”
“I don’t
know who they are, sir. I’m probably in the same boat as you right now. An anonymous survey in the mail, an office building with an empty parking lot, a poorly lit room, and some woman in a suit who I can just never seem to get a
real clear look at. I signed the same paper you did; check my sack. My name’s on it, even. I’m in this same as you.”
“Bull shit, son!” he spits back at me, not conceding an inch. “You are
damn too sure of yourself to be sitting here like that. What do you know that I don’t, huh?!”
This time, I try my very hardest
not to sound condescending. “I know that that revolver you’re holding isn’t loaded, and hasn’t been since I woke up.”
His eyes flicker to the exposed chambers of the gun, flicker back to me, then back to the chambers. I can see it in his face; the realization. He shakes his head fractions of an inch back and forth as an even deeper scowl forms on his face. He probably doesn’t believe what he’s seeing. Or just doesn’t want to accept the fact that not only did I pointlessly threaten him with an unloaded revolver, but that he just did the same thing. My initial fear is that he’ll throw the thing away and go for his
own weapon again, start bashing me over the head with it in a frustrated rage.
He doesn’t.
His head continues to shake back and forth as his feet autonomously carry him backwards in disbelief, until he flops down into a chair across the table. The fury slowly melts away from his face, but the uncertainty remains. And he
still holds onto my gun, for better or for worse.
“Why… Why the hell are you carrying around an unloaded weapon in a place like this?”
“I told you, sir. I’m not trying to kill you. I’m not trying to kill anyone. That
was my real name, I swear to God. I’m out of the contract now.”
Again, he asks,
”Why? Y-You, you come here, sign the damn sheet, and then throw it away…? Why’d you even
come, damn it?!”
It’s a question I’ve already asked myself , back on the “mainland”, or wherever home is now. It’s a question I’ve already
answered for myself, for that matter. But having another one of these poor souls actually ask it to my face… it puts a different perspective on it. Makes me think about how I’d word it out loud. For me, it’s just something I
know. For him…
“I’ll be level with you, Powder—“
“Stop callin’ me that, damn it.”
“All right. Whoever it was that gave you your contract… I expect they didn’t explain a whole lot other than telling you this wasn’t no joke.” I pause for a moment, let him think about whether or not that’s the case. I certainly
hope that’s the case. At least, that’s what that woman in black told me: “Every other candidate right now is in exactly the same situation, in a room just like this, talking to a person in a suit just like me.” If this game isn’t as fair as she said is was going to be, this all comes tumbling down like a stack of cards, and I’m just some fat preacher spouting dogma.
I continue. “My suit told me something. Something she said she doubted the other suits were going to tell
their candidates. Something very simple. She told me that nowhere on that contract does it say that the contractor
must attempt to go after another contractor.”
Leaning forward, I place both of my palms on the table, looking the man squarely in the eye. “Sir, I answered practically every question on that ‘psychological trial’ of theirs with a resounding no. Every one. No, I would not kill a complete stranger. No, I would not kill a man breaking into my house, or a convenience store, or a bank, or the White House. Yes, I would fight back in self defense; no, I would
not attempt to kill my assailant in self defense. Pages and pages of reasons why, sir. Don’t ask me why I thought it would do any good; probably for the same darn reason that every time some survey asks me what my race is I write in bold letters ‘HUMAN.’ And despite that I
still ended up here, same as you.”
I don’t know what good it’s going to do, telling his this. If it even
will do any good. And like he said, how can he know any of it is true? Talk is cheap. He’s old enough to know that a lot better than I do. As I look as that gun in his hands, my namesake, I can only hope that what I’m telling him is helping, in some way, in
any way. Because that’s the
real reason I’m here. I don’t want to die. But if I can get even
one person here to realize what that contract is going to turn them into, that’ll be enough for me.
“So, so… so what, what does this mean?” he asks, almost rhetorically. “You said no, mostly. You’re here. I… I said, yes. Mostly. And… I’m here.”
I sigh; what, indeed? “I suspect a lot of them said yes, mostly. I suspect people who said yes, mostly, are looking for a miracle. Life
is a miracle, sir. I don’t mean to preach, but it is. I suspect that’s what this is all about. Trading one miracle for another.”
“To what
end?!” he shouts, throwing up his arms and then letting them drop to his sides. “For the love of God, what’s the point?! Why’d they send us out here in the first place?! Why am I talking to you, why didn’t I plug you the moment I laid eyes on you?!”
“Do you
want to plug me, sir?”
“That’s not the point!”
“I believe, sir, that it is.” I lean forward again, pushing my chair closer to the table. “They said they’d be watching us, didn’t they? Said that they would
know if we broke the rules, or followed them; if we shot in self-defense, or unprovoked. Might be watching us right now.”
As expected, Powder’s eyes drift up towards the corners of the building and outside the windows. He hunches closer to me, his voice dropping to a whisper.
”You talking… cameras? Microphones? Bugs? Spies?” I shrug. Because I don’t know.
Are they using cameras and bugs? Or are they using the
threat of cameras and bugs? Awful lot of trouble to rig up that many all the way out here. But… it’s possible. For all I thought I knew about this when that woman told me about what the contract
didn’t say, I realize that I really don’t know any more than he does. I might feel better about myself for voiding
my rewards, but that doesn’t change the fact that anyone else could kill me and claim
theirs. And three days is an
awfully long time.
Powder returns to his state of paranoia. “Where’s the ammunition for this thing? I want it.”
“In the bag, by the bedframe. Want me to get it for you?”
“N-No, no, that’s… that’s all right. I’ve, I’ve got it.”
As he moves over to my traveling pack, I add, “Might as well take the cash too, while you’re at it.”
“The cash?”
“The twenty-thousand dollars. You probably need it more than I do.”
He scowls as he pockets my box of bullets and the speedloaders inside his coat. “You trying to
bribe me, son?”
Another shrug. “My car’s paid off, and I rent.”
He puffs out his cheeks skeptically and shakes his head. But he leaves the bills alone. Sitting back down, he pulls a handful of cartridges out of his pocket and loads the revolver, one by one.
“So…” he asks me, “What now?”
What, indeed.
[ ] Attempt conversation. Stop being “complete strangers”.
[ ] Suggest nothing. Let Powder make a plan.
[ ] Suggest investigating Belt.
[ ] Suggest moving. Head (state direction/destination)
[ ] Part ways. Powder is nervous. Head (state direction/destination)
--( ) Ask for the revolver
--( ) Ask for the grenade launcher
--( ) Travel unarmed
Switch… < > Clip
< > Chamber
< > Magazine
< > Bolt
< > Drum
< > Belt
< > Shell
< > Powder
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>>33213 Fair enough.