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“I wonder if this is what it feels like to be a mother,” Aya said at long last. She had been relatively quiet for some time, offering only a terse shrug or half-mumbled reply whenever I said something. Part of it may have been a normal post-meal slump, that time when thoughts are weighed down by physical satisfaction. Part of it may have been real introspection. Perhaps, more likely, it had been a convenient way for her to setup whatever other point she wanted to make before the night was through.
I couldn’t tell what her deal really was. As the night wore on, I was less and less sure of her real thoughts and motivations. I briefly wondered if she thought the same about me, since I wasn’t really open either. At least, I tried not to be. I refrained from asking her about things I wanted to ask because I wasn’t sure if it’d be playing into her hand. At any rate, the timing was off.
I smiled, hoping to mask my true thoughts and went through the opening she left me, asking, “what do you mean?”
Aya sighed, leaned back in her chair and turned her eyes up to the ceiling, looking like she was staring through solid material at the stars. There was a pause. For better or worse, I found myself leaning in slightly, crossing my arms. “I have my doubts about if you’re ready,” she said, keeping her gaze fixed upwards.
“About tomorrow?” I asked the unnecessary.
“Yep. Going out into the wider world all by yourself isn’t easy. If you mess up, it won’t just be me that you have to worry about.”
“Even in the worst case scenario, I don’t think the elders would care that much about a single failing. That’s why we’re told about those stupid stories as kids, about the most important thing is learning from our mistakes,” I told her, not being able to help but remember one such story. Exiled from the tribe and forced to prove herself before being able to return… no one these days would stand for it.
“That’s not it at all,” Aya looked at me, eyes wide with something that could be interpreted as concern. It wasn’t very becoming of her. “You may get hurt or killed,” she stated bluntly, “there’s no getting around that risk. And it’s only fair that I’m forthright about that.”
“Just what are you having me do?” I didn’t allow her words to have an overt impact on me. Internally, I was still trying to decide if she was full of it or not.
“Good, at least you’re not saying that you’re not afraid,” she nodded and smiled weakly, adding, “overconfidence is a bad thing when facing the unknown.”
“Lesson learned, horrible fate avoided and whatever, but I asked you a question...”
“I suppose that the fact that you’re my charge has really gotten to me,” she said, “more than that, you’re like a fledgling and you’re leaving the nest on your own now.”
That was an answer to my first question not to my second one. But if I asked it again, I would probably get no closer to an answer. I chose to be flippant instead, “Well, it certainly has been interesting to see your maternal instinct at work these past few days. You inspire me to reach ever higher heights of filial piety.”
“You’ll appreciate my efforts when you’re older,” she said with a self-satisfied look. A good if annoying counter, all things considered.
“Right,” I shrugged, “and I’m sure that you’ll get over your dread as soon as I’m out through the door.”
“It doesn’t really matter if you believe me or not. I would like you to be careful, regardless. I won’t be around to help and you may find yourself in over your head at some point.” Aya crossed her arms, likely for effect, “sometimes the perfect solution isn’t worth the price you have to pay. Try to come back to me in once piece.”
“If I didn’t, you’d never let me live it down,” I said, smirking. “It’s a matter of pride. You know how pride is important to a tengu.”
She laughed, shaking her head and showing of a little smirk herself, “we could spend the rest of the night talking about pride and going back and forth pretty easily. Well… I’ve said my piece, so as much as I enjoy the idea I think it’s best if we move on. We’re getting up before sunrise.”
The thought of waking up before it was light out was enough to encourage my body into resting mode. We cleaned up and sorted up the few remaining things we had to get ready for the next day. Once the lights were put out, I exchanged a perfunctory ‘goodnight’ with Aya and lay still in my hammock.
I still hadn’t a clue what was going to happen the next day. But it didn’t bother me. I stayed awake for a short while, thinking, but I didn’t allow myself to get too lost in my thoughts. Somehow it felt more important to get a proper rest, particularly if we were getting up in only a few hours. So I closed my eyes and let my thoughts float away, leading me to a still sleep.
Aya tapped me on the shoulder to wake me up. She had a lamp on and was already fully dressed. I mumbled a ‘good morning’ and wasted no time in getting ready. I was about as energetic as could be expected under the circumstances—neither too sluggish nor raring to go. I got dressed quickly and checked over my things one last time before leaving.
“Here,” Aya handed me breakfast; a somewhat dry rice ball was the start of my day. I ate it quickly while taking a final look around the house to see if I was leaving anything behind.
“I’m ready,” I said after the check and set out to tighten the straps on my rucksack.
Aya seemed to be on the same level as me, enthusiasm-wise. She looked more serious than the previous evening but that was probably more the echoes of drowsiness than true sobriety. There were no papers to deliver so I was sure that she would rather still be in bed than escorting me away. After snuffing out the light, she stepped outside to wait for me.
I stretched and then put my kit onto my back. I had pretty much everything I needed there. I was leaving some things behind, things that would just weigh me down. I figured that if I needed to be out and about, maintaining my stamina was going to be important. Better to sacrifice a mild convenience for less fatigue.
It was still dark outside, starlight providing only faint illumination. There was a piece of long, dark cloth in Aya’s hand. “We’re flying,” she announced, and then beckoned me close, “you need to wear this.”
“Not an armband, I take it?” I asked.
“Sorry, but you can’t see where you’re going. Once you’re there you can take it off. Not up to me, don’t argue,” she said firmly, enough to convince me that she wasn’t playing around. There was little point in asking why I needed it
at all when it was still dark out. It was about making sure instead of a immediate concern.
“How am I supposed to get there then? Doesn’t look like you’re going to carry me.”
“I’m going to hold your hand all the way,” she said, no trace of emotion in her voice. A missed opportunity for her ‘maternal’ instincts to show up again. “Here,” she started to place the blindfold on me, “stay still and we’ll be on our way.”
After she was done blinding me, Aya grabbed my hand as promised. Her hand was warm. The pre-dawn morning was chilly and a steady current of cool air pushed us from behind as we started flying. I couldn’t tell what direction we took, just that we were going high up into the sky for some reason. The only sounds I could hear was my own breathing and the soft flapping of the leathers from my rucksack.
We weren’t going too quickly and ended up flying for a long time. I felt the first rays of the sun eventually, after what was probably a very brief twilight. The slight temperature difference wasn’t enough to make it stop being cold right away, but it was an encouraging first sign.
Aya stopped, floating in place for a minute.
“Are we there yet?” I asked, grinning because I couldn’t help myself.
“Almost,” she replied, “just a little more to go.”
We climbed up some more and then started forward slowly, as if we were walking in the air instead of flying. Then, we stopped again. And started descending slowly until we were hovering, by my reckoning, very close to the ground.
“We’ve arrived,” she said, “I wish you luck. And hope to see you soon enough.”
“Just like that?” I asked, wondering if she was going to deign herself to explain anything in the end.
“Yeah,” she squeezed my hand with what could well have been genuine affection, or passed for it, “you take care of yourself now.”
“Alright, I’ll try,” I said, “but is there-?”
“It’s self-evident,” she cut me off, “listen I’ve got to get going, I’m not supposed to hang around.”
“If I didn’t know any better, I’d say that was almost an apology,” I smiled, imaging actual contrition plastered on her face. Didn’t suit her at all.
Aya let go of my hand and didn’t reply to my barb. Instead, she said quietly, “I’m going to go now, take off the blindfold only after I’ve left. Count to a hundred if you must.”
“I’m not going to count to a hundred,” I said, needlessly, certain that she also knew better. I reached for the blindfold. The knot in the back was annoyingly taught and groping around blind to loosen it seemed like a waste of time. I simply pulled the blindfold over my head, struggling for a brief moment as it clung on stubbornly.
Holding the blindfold in one hand, I ran my fingers through my hair. A basic display of vanity that couldn’t be helped, as I had inadvertently tousled it. Without a mirror I had to have faith that I did an adequate job at combing it. No one was around to see me do all that. Aya was long gone and the sky, now mostly bright with the sun off to the far distance, seemed empty.
I looked around. I tried to get my bearings. Mountains stretched out in the distance. Perhaps farther out than normal. Odd. I was used to seeing them much closer for, wherever you were in Gensokyo, you were basically surrounded by nearby mountains. Maybe it was a matter of perspective, I had been taken to some secret valley between foothills or something. Things only seemed to be far away.
Below me was a lightly wooded area. There was a small path that cut through trees and stretched up towards higher ground. The cold I felt before had more or less gone away. Thank goodness for that. I set down below on the path, feeling a little tired from all that flying. Aya certainly didn’t care to slow herself down much for me, though I’m certain that she’d tease me that she had gone as slowly as possible without then falling from the sky.
I slung my pack off my shoulder and to the ground. I wasn’t quite used to carrying much weight for extended periods of time. It felt good to take a brief break. Most importantly, it gave me a chance to examine the only clue I had on what to do next. I saw Aya stuff something into the pack when she thought I wasn’t looking. Probably her way of trying to teach me to always be on guard.
There was a copy of the latest edition of her paper in there. I skimmed through it quickly. The only thing of significance there was a small article with barely any column space. “Tengu Seen Roaming Beyond the Mountain,” it stated in its headline in extremely small print. The body was barely four sentences long. Didn’t say much, except that there had been sightings of a young tengu leaving the comfort of the mountain with an unknown purpose. But that there would be more on the story as it developed as, “It seems that this could be the prelude to something of real significance.”
Whether that simply meant that she had high hopes for me or that she knew something important that I didn’t, I wasn’t too sure. Didn’t really make a difference. Not like she’d tell me outright, anyhow. All that could be said for certain was that she was telling me to take things seriously. As if I didn’t know already…
Shaking my head, I rummaged some more in my rucksack. My instincts told me that the newspaper wasn’t the only thing that she had left me. A quick search proved those instincts correct, as I found an envelope and a note as well. “The lady of the land is expecting you, give her that invitation,” it said, warning at the end, “it’s for her eyes only!”
I very much doubted that I wasn’t supposed to open the envelope. That just sounded like something that she made up just to see if I’d do it or not. Still, I would rather err on the side of caution, if only to make a good first impression. If I got lost or was put in a weird situation, I’d revisit the decision. I put everything back with a smile on my face, ultimately thinking that all of that was her way of making it feel like she was still with me.
The hint in the note had only one reasonable explanation, I felt. I had to look for the biggest, most important house and I’d find whomever it was I was supposed to find. Or, if not house, cave. Or tallest tree. People in charge liked to lord over the rest, make sure they understand what the pecking order is really like at a glance. I was certain that if I followed the path I was on, I’d eventually reach her. Towards the sloping hill off in the distance, obviously, since that’d be the perfect place to watch over the rest of the surrounding land.
I began walking, not necessarily hurried about things. I decided against flying some more because the sky was eerily empty of birds or clouds. I’d stand out too much up there. Not that I couldn’t handle myself but something in the back of my mind kept me from feeling too confident. Aya was still too stupidly good at reading me—the bit about the invitation being private plus our previous conversation made me wonder if maybe there wasn’t something that’d get in my way before I got to her.
Once I got going, it became impossible to dismiss something which had been bothering me for some time.
It was too quiet No, more than that, it was
impossibly quiet.
No birds. No insects. No water. Nothing stirring, chittering or scurrying about. The leaves on the trees were absolutely still, no wind blowing on them and causing them to rustle. Only my footsteps made any noise and, even then, each footfall seemed stifled as if intimidated by oppressive silence. It wasn’t natural. Not in the least. Even in the quietest places there was the occasional water droplet or gust of wind, rhythmically thrumming against the ground itself.
I didn’t let the strange atmosphere overawe me into inaction. I carried on much as before, walking at a steady pace. My ears were pricked up, scanning for any other noise, any sign that I wasn’t the only thing around that was actually in motion. I hoped that I’d catch a glimpse of a sparrow or a rabbit, something to show me that I wasn’t all alone, but found nothing even after stopping to intently observe my surroundings.
Maybe I was being ignored? That was one possibility. Not that likely. Everyone in Gensokyo was territorial to an extent, so it didn’t make sense that an interloper would be ignored. Another possibility was that I was being watched carefully but, if that was the case, the absolute quiet would be certain to put anyone on edge. So a surprise attack coming up didn’t seem likely.
I thought about taking to the sky again once I encountered steps. The path had widened, turned from compacted earth to paved stone and now led upwards a hill. I may have seen something just out of the corner of my eye. It was a pale blur, much smaller than a person. Not being able to find it after looking around some, I started to climb the stairs. More motion just behind me, quiet and fast. Nothing there when I turned around.
That was just the way it was going to be, I decided. If it wasn’t just my mind playing tricks on me, whatever it was wasn’t going to show itself right away. I may as well keep climbing, I figured.
Those things, if they were really there, made sure I never got a clear look at them. They seemed to appear a few more times as I went up the stairs but always out of my proper field of view. I was about halfway up the very long stairs when I decided that using my legs was a fool thing to do, after all. Climbing while flying would be way easier.
Going down stairs while flying was pretty easy, too. At least, the person zooming at me from the top made it look easy. The incredible speed at which they were barreling down on me barely gave me time to judge whether or not I needed to step out of the way. My tengu instincts told me to stand my ground like nothing was wrong, but I could imagine how someone not blessed with my confidence could find himself tensing up.
Ultimately, I was proven right. The person stopped just short of hitting me, halting on the step above me. It didn’t look like she was having a good day, a scowl contaminated her otherwise soft features, green eyes sharp as they scanned and (presumably) sized me up.
“Well met,” I said, raising my hand up casually. Something told me if I didn’t say anything she was likely to keep staring silently at me. I wasn’t sure if her glare was meant to intimidate me or she was was simply incapable of hiding how she felt.
“You’re not running away anymore?” she asked, voice firm but still remarkably girlish. It was a combination about as mismatched as the rest of her. She clutched a wooden sword with one hand, standing tense as if ready for the slightest sign of hostility from me. And yet, whatever sense of authority and power she intended to project was harshly undercut by her, well, daintiness.
Save for her short, above-the-shoulders, silver hair that looked slightly disheveled (perhaps intended to be provocative), everything else about her was delicate and close to doll-like. The black ribbon off to one side of the top of her head seemed a little disproportionate to her small frame and characteristics. It was twinned with another black ribbon fastidiously tied at the collar of her pale blouse. A dark green dress covered her otherwise, a vest-like portion on top let the blouse act as sleeves and collar and, at the bottom, it ended a little above the knee as a skirt. Several cutesy-looking white blobs adorned it near the hemline and one more was stamped on a breast pocket.
Those things were probably whatever hung floating just behind her. I’d never seen something like it before; an amorphous blob of translucent white that followed her like a trained pet. I wanted to take a closer look, see how something without appendages or a face could move make sense of the world, but I figured that it risked upsetting the girl more. I wasn’t in the mood to dodge swords, wooden or not.
“Why would I run away?” I asked and added, “I just got here. Wherever this is.”
“Hm,” the girl placed an arm akimbo, keeping the other one with the sword pointed at me. “So you weren’t up there just now?” she asked, not looking like she quite believed me.
“Nope. Been walking and climbing these stairs for a while. I have nothing to hide or reason to run away.”
“So you say...” she curled her lips momentarily, not hiding what her thought process might have been in the least. There was doubt in her next few words, but it seemed that she had chosen to believe me, “so what
are you doing here?”
I wanted to tell her that I didn’t have the faintest idea. But I got the feeling, somehow, that that wouldn’t go down so well. Instead, I gave her the truth, or a prudent amount of it, stating, “I’m supposed to meet the lady of the land, she’s expecting me.”
“Lady of-?” the girl made a difficult expression, like she just tasted something extremely sour. “What is your business with her?” she asked, trying harder to sound even more intimidating.
“Well,” I paused to think.
The hell was her problem? I certainly didn’t feel like cooperating with her. Not with her attitude problem. I was moving past her whether she liked it or not.
[] Whatever it is, it’s private and none of her business.
[] Get the invitation, read it and find out.
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And so, there is finally a new thread. There was a long delay but I hope you feel it was worth it. I'm not going to make excuses for taking so long as there are too many factors at play to be either concise or objective about it. Plus, you likely don't really care, anyhow. Regardless, let's keep on traveling together, towards more tenguness and fun!